So it has been a while since my last post and my thoughts have been scattered here and there, much like disturbed dust in an old room. Work has been hectic, but don't get me wrong, I love the job and am thankful for it. There have been many times in my life where things have come and gone and I did not realize its true value. This time, it is different, and I am unsure why. I think part of it lies in the fact that I have found my life's passion, but that is not entirely it, for there are a thousand things I wish I were doing everyday. I think part of it is my current situation in life, with a child on the way, the importance of work, money, bills become all that much more clearer. It seems as if a fog has been lifted from my eyes. The rose colour tint of the veil that dangled before my eyes has vanished and the vibrant colour of life splashes before my vision.
It is scary, and with someone who will learn from you it is more fearful. I do not want my child to make the mistakes that I did, but knowing myself and the trials and tribulations of life that I went through, I know they will have to learn somethings for themselves.
We are rounding the corner, coming into our 30th week? Movement within Bel is crazy, so much so I found myself watching her belly rather than the T.V. The thought that something could create movement like that astounds me, and I wonder how she deals with it. I would find it truly annoying...especially when trying to sleep. Thank the gods she is the one pregnant!!(I would have been bed ridden months ago!!) ;)
Soon I will graduate, I have achieved the degree of Masters and for that I am very proud, maybe more so than most. It has been a long journey, and not an easy one. But I am here, and I have earned all that I have. I can only hope that I will pass on this passion, this thirst for life to my child. I see most people depressed by life, angered at the politics that shape the world and generally not happy with the situation they are in. I can only hope that I cull those feelings in my child and foster the strength to change what is in their power to change so that they can be as happy as I have grown to be.
But then again, I am merely a mortal...a human one at that!
-Nor-
Thursday, May 17, 2007
On Becomming a Father (Part 1.5)
Posted by BelNor at 10:15 PM
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Good job Nor! Kick cynicism in the ass!
You shouldn't worry about what becoming a father may entail for you. I have faith in you Dave, you'll be an excellent father!
You are so awesome, you know that you are putting so much more thought into becoming a father than the majority of those so called "sperm donors" out there. I mean, you are actually concerned, so many (not me personally, but people) did not have a positve male in their life. You will be that postive male, and you should be proud. :)
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